My life everyday began to transform into something so peaceful & beautiful than I couldn’t even envisioned. I realize that running from freedom can ruin so much, and since then I gave up on running.
With help of doing my own self-care rituals, I began to feel safe & connected with myself. I discovered the life-changing miracles that lives inside each & every visible emotions. I taught myself it’s okay to feel things. Feelings exist for a reason right? It can torture us mentally, it can cause us to have sleepless nights. But remember it’s feelings.
Sadness & fear was the first thing that was worrisome for me.
I spent so many years numbing the pain I endured from sadness & fear by going out for drinks a lot, sleeping all day, not doing my daily routines, giving up on being fit, eating unhealthy, being sluggish, the list is endless truthfully. I was afraid of the person I was seeing in the mirror. And that’s when the light bulb clicked in my head.
I wasn’t the person I was really seeing. It was all just a blur. Something so easy to snap out of. Remember I said in one of my articles how are minds plays tricks on us. And it does, literally. We control our own emotions.
As I began to work on these issues…
I started to be more open with myself & too others. I had to stop fearing what people would think of me, and how would they visioned me. I began to discover why sadness had been bottling up inside of my heart for all these years. From the tragedy that transpired in my life, from the heartaches I suffered from, I let go.
I surrender my soul to freedom. I wanted to forgive myself. And I did exactly just that by finding my love for writing. I was born to create. To write. To heal. And to connect with others through art. I’m so happy I am blessed with this gift. Part of what my pain was trying to tell me was, you need to live a creative life.
P.S. I don’t promote my blogs to anyone I know. No one knows that I have helped & healed so many people, and loved by complete strangers. I keep it discreet for my own mental health. Not everyone is clapping for you, but I didn’t let that stop me from becoming a healer.
Okay back to the main purpose:
I stopped allowing society to have an opinion for me. Our culture is the reason of me becoming my own self-medication.
We all are collectively fearful of becoming uncomfortable & being judged. And experiencing the obstacles I’ve been through. I stopped allowing people in my own inner circle. Because my mentality was different. When it comes to my own critical thinking, I knew I didn’t click with everyone. And I knew that the things I’ve been through only I can heal myself, not others. People opinions started to not matter to me anymore. My medication was me becoming rebellious. I move accordingly and when I feel it’s right for me. I set my own rules, although I know how to take criticism and know when to take accountability. Being this way has only made me stronger.
I also learned that being uncomfortable can wan growth. Your growing. It means your life is opening up to expand more. Your heading to another side in your life. A side that will make you glow more, be more vibrant, and of course much happier. Embrace your feelings don’t just feel them.
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I really hope you enjoyed this blog. I really put my all into opening up and expressing my past & present lifestyle. It’s so important to share my story, because you never know who else out there that can relate and you can inspire.